Alarm Clocks and AP Classes

Let me start off by saying...I despise alarm clocks. That incessant beeping noise drives me nuts, especially when you can't find the snooze button right away :) I guess the one good thing is that I get up a lot quicker than when my mom used to wake me up.

My first day of school was not the best. I don't know if I was exhausted from cramming my summer homework into the last few weeks of school or if I just wasn't excited about this year in general. Probably a combination of both. I know this is weird to some people, but I really enjoy school 90% of the time. Despite my complaining about certain assignments and tests and getting way too stressed out about things, I love being challenged and filling my head with knowledge(wow, I am a teacher's child).

After thinking about my first day, I realized I've already learned something about myself that might hold me back for this upcoming year: I don't always accept change. As I've mentioned before, I'm a very organized, routine type person and when something messes up that "perfect cycle", I become very disoriented. This is what happened at school. I was still trying to hold on to my teachers from last year and how they conducted their classes. I was comparing them to my new teachers and not accepting the fact that I am in higher level classes with teachers who are not going to have the same teaching habits as I'm use to. This was especially true in my Pre-calc class. I've had a woman math teacher since 6th grade(except for 7th) and they have all taught with the same class structure. They all did the same routine everyday, so you can imagine how hard it is for me to have a new teacher with new customs. I also had to write my first 3 page Type II of the year for AP Lang. I think this was just so sudden(and I had just finished my AP homework the night before, but that was my own dumb fault) for the first day. I just had the same thought in my head all day, I wanted to challenge myself this year, so I need to accept that fact that I have to continue living up to the high expectations I have from others and myself.

While I woke up this morning(to my annoying alarm clock) feeling discouraged, the day went surprisingly well. I'm getting used to my new teachers and have a better understanding of what the class is going to be like. I can already tell I'm going to love AP Euro and AP Lang. My teachers are awesome and I love the things we are going to be doing this year(maybe this will change as the year goes on :) My Spanish teacher is so energetic! The bell rang today and she just started talking to us in spanish, like we were supposed to know exactly what she was asking us. She'll be fun and it's my last hour, so that's really nice. I'm really looking forward to CP Chem. I had my teacher for Seg. 2 last winter so I already know a little bit about him. He's a very reasonable teacher with high expectations so I'm sure we will get along with each other quite well. I'm still not sure about Pre-calc, but today was much better than yesterday. It's just one of those things I have to adjust to.

There is this new girl, Audrey, that has been sitting with my friends and I at lunch. She moved here from Kentucky. I don't know that much about her yet, but pray that she'll open up to us and I'll have a chance to talk to her more as the year goes on. Also pray that she adjusts well to the school and the new atmosphere.

God is going to teach me so much this year. I need to fully rely on Him because I know I'll never get through the rest of the year with out depending on Him for everything. I need to surrender this year to Him. He's always in control.

Atleast I can always depend on my Heavenly Father. He's always there for me and loves me no matter what happens in my life. He accepts me for the stressed out, over-committed student I am. His love is the one thing that remains in my life, even when everything around me is constantly changing. He never changes.