The Change Inside of Me....

I've really been thinking about what it means to be a christian. Who am I in Christ? By going to a public school and being involved in First Priority, I can really see the difference between people who are "christians" and people who are born-again believers in Jesus Christ. I think this is the biggest struggle for me as a christian at G.H.H.S.- seeing students who come to First Priority every week and get involved, but then walk out into the hall and swear, gossip, etc. I'm not trying to be down on the group, but I feel that's a problem at any school or church, christian or public. We are suppose to be different than our non-christian friends. The difference they see in us should be evident in our actions and words.

This has caused me to evaluate myself as a follower of Christ. Can my peers clearly see that there is something special in me? Can they see that I am different than the rest of the students? I often wonder if my actions and words really DO show that I am different. I don't swear or talk in a provocative manner, which is even slightly different than my close friends at school. I try so hard to dress modestly so I don't get the attention that other girls long for. I just wonder if this is enough? Are the little changes that I make everyday enough to show others that I have a different, bigger purpose for my life? I realize I am a human being and I know I will stumble, but I question whether or not I am really showing people what it means to be a true christian. I think people know that I am a christian because of the comments I receive and my basic overall reputation, but I hope that I am really showing them who Christ is and using my opportunities to tell them about Him. I think the fact that I'm questioning this in the first place means I'm probably not taking things to the next level. I tend to be very sarcastic and outgoing at times and I hope people don't take that in a negative way. I want to show them that it is AWESOME to have a relationship with Christ. I want to show them that being a christian doesn't mean that you can't have any fun, but rather rejoice because you have someone who will NEVER leave you and will LOVE you forever. I want to show them that I am a changed person because I have accepted Christ and His love has transformed me... but I am doing this? Do they see the change?